You're alone

You’re going to be alone forever. There is nobody in the world – hear me out- nobody who will be able to understand you completely,nobody who will see eye to eye with you on all matters.

We all have that one favourite book,song,movie,painting. Something that strikes a chord within us. Since I’m a book person,I’ll relate it to books. Think of your favourite book. You know those special lines, the one which make your heart feel complete,the ones you relate to so well that you want to show someone. You get that nagging in your head. Somebody NEEDS to know how you feel and how well its been put across here!

Nobody will understand. Even if you do manage to get someone to read it, all you’re going to get in return is a blank look or a quizzical look asking “so?” or at best a hollow “wow that’s nice”

You’ll want to scream at them, cry out “why hasn’t this impacted you profoundly? Why such an underreaction? This what I’ve just shown you holds one of the keys to my existence. It deserves more from you.”

But you can’t make them feel something they just….don’t.

You’re alone.

Nobody is going to know all about you- every little lane of life you’ve walked through,every thought or feeling you have about people, why certain things make you react a certain way, why you find some people so hard to trust. Nobody is going to know the inside workings of your mind-why you obsess over a drink just because it reminds you of a certain boy, what every reference or personal joke means actually, why you want to appear a certain way in front of some people, what demons have pursued you all your life, why are you pushing everyone away, why do you suddenly need to get away from everything?

You’re alone

There will never be one person who’ll walk in with the solution. Even if it feels like there is, you’ll discover soon enough that you’ve been kidding yourself. Nobody will have a mind that mirrors yours. Nobody will come in magically as the “soulmate” we all aspire to find. Someone perfectly like that does not exist. You have GOT to stop believing in the fairytale that you’re going to find somebody with the answers to every question you have,the same excited smile and spark in eyes you have when something touches you, the urge to navigate the inner reaches of your mind and stay despite everything they find. To quote Mean Girls “Stop trying to make it happen. Its not going to happen”

You’re alone.

The faster you accept it and make peace with it, the easier it will be to cope. It will stop you from dying a little every time you’re misunderstood. Trust me, you’ll have saved yourself a lot of disappointment.

Peace

By Nirmitee Mehta

Because They Always Make Me Smile!

Have you ever wondered what you want to be remembered for?
Your work or your life?
You want to go down in history or just be remembered, remembered by those who knew you?
I think I just want to be remembered, just have someone who loved me enough to remember me, to do so, sometimes, fondly, like maybe they'd want me around still, that would be my mark on the world, my friends.
Maybe that’s all there is to life, the people you meet and the things you do. What do you think?
I’ve come to a point in life, where life is so transient, so changeable. Schools over and I can see my friends slipping away and I know that most of them won’t be a part of my life soon, it’s so weird but I’ve come to accept it with resignation...these were people whom my life revolved around for about two years, and soon they won’t even be a part of it but all that’s left is resignation?  Some will of course continue to be a big part of our lives but those are just the treasured ones, the special ones, what about the rest?  Some part of me is waiting for this change so I can know who really matters but a big part is grieving the loss of so many people.  It’s just strange; sometimes I feel if we fight this, don't let life take over and really honestly treasure every person in our lives not just best friends and close friends...but every person who’s ever been there for us, life would be so much easier, so much more worth living. Every person I leave behind takes a part of me with them, what if we reach a point where there's nothing left?  We are running too fast, doing too much at the same time, leaving behind too many people, cant we just slow down?
Every person in my life has a memory attached to them, something special that makes that person mine, they all bring softness to my heart, they are like laughter etched on my face forever, everyone is like a little more life, a little more happiness a little more sadness, a little more of me.
 They say loving someone is giving them the right to hurt you and trusting them not to, somehow I’ve always believed only the first part, because I honestly believe a part of life is pain so they are going to hurt as at some point, but I would love to forgive them, to honestly just accept that no one’s perfect, it’s worth it because they give us so much more! They give us a little more happiness and for that anything is worth forgiving, but then my ego comes in the way; there is this never ending battle that ego and self respect have with friendship. Friendship demands we forgive and forget everything a friend does, as long as they are still friends, still the person you loved, we must accept their faults but self respect demands that we don't give anyone a chance to hurt us again. Commercial principle though isn’t it? You love me as much as I love you or forget about it. It is maybe, a little stupid to keep someone in your life when all they do is hurt you, but it’s just difficult to let go. They all become so special! Actually, I have a theory attached to the word special, anything you say is special, just becomes special (however ordinary it really is!) and you have that tingly feeling in your stomach saying, something just fell into place. So how are we supposed to let go of something so special, with a smile?
Honestly I'm a little confused, but I hope I'll figure it out soon but I feel so out of time, everyone is moving on, and everyone’s moving away! Sometimes I very honestly wonder why we met if it had to end. Why can’t we just meet those people who are our destiny, meant to be in our lives forever? Does loosing have to be a part of life? I guess we just need to focus on now; this fear of what’s to come will just make us loose what we needn't loose. Make us loose our destiny, because honestly how can anyone but true friends be your destiny, how can anyone but them make you smile that way? And they always make me smile ♥

                                                                                           By Radha Agarwal

Why I Love People:)

I love people.
The more people I meet, the more I want to.
Our world is full of people. Different people. We read, we learn but we see just the darkness, it’s what shines through you know? I mean I’ll go to an orphanage and I’ll come back with a story about how it is really corrupt, how the clothes and toys you donate go to waste since they are just used on days when someone comes to see those children and the money goes to the pockets of the authorities but do we remember we go there once, just once, to meet those children but all we do is criticise? Does anyone realise that these children could just as easily have been on the streets, begging for money, at least now, they have some semblance of a home, of an education? Actually maybe we all know this, maybe we feel that though we are too busy living our lives, those who have decided to live it for someone else should do so without cheating,I mean how could they look into a child’s eyes and not give him/her enough money for decent food, decent education and a better future?I guess they do it the same way that, I can go once and promise to go again and never go back.We need to realise that we often contradict our own intentions. Knowing this i can still love people,even if they arent all perfect. Just sometimes we should see behind the worst, see to the minds of the people who steal. It’s a fascinating to try and see where they come from, their story. I’m sure they have one, I’m sure we all do. Whether it’s about an orphanage or a blog. So look behind the darkness a little, or look into it, but look. You may be surprised. I will not go so far as to say the world is beautiful but it’s definitely interesting.


There is so much I want to be, and do in this life, it is people i meet who inspire me. The ones that show me who I want to be. Who I can be. I can’t have every experience in this world. But if I speak to enough people maybe through them I can live a little more than I have, I can understand a little more than I already have and Maybe I can expect a little more than I already do form life, from myself. Just for that even the worst experiences I have with people are worth having.


Everybody has a weird preconceived notion of what is right and what is wrong and frankly that’s the one thing that gets to me. How can you decide what is right for me? Sometimes even I can’t decide what is right for me, but that’s life, trial and error, so live and let live. Be an observer without forcing your opinion on people, and you can learn so much more than you can ever imagine.


So like I said I love people, and the more people I meet the stronger the feeling gets simply because they are all so different and their opinions are so different. I know I am so different with everyone of them, at the risk of sounding a hypocrite, but honestly I think everyone’s personality just reacts differently to everybody else’s. The only way I can see of getting to know every aspect of myself is by getting to know new people.
So get out of your shell, let people know you a little more, so that they can tell you a little themselves, and open a new world for you.

:)

By Radha Agarwal